Sorry !

Personal, Website Related  ||   May 16, 2012   ||   0 comments

Well.. I have to  say, it’s been an insanely long time since I last posted.
I apologize.
Life has had big ups and downs lately, things are slowly starting to settle down so hopefully I’ll have more time for my site. I think it’s in need of a major update ! I’ll try my best to start working on this, but it may take some time to get back into the whole ‘blogging’ thing. Sometimes I can be bothered, other times I can’t. Haha. But hopefully I can turn this site into a more portfolio site because I’m starting to work on my art and writing again.
So bare with me, those who still visit. I am not dead !


Rest in Peace.

Family, Personal  ||   March 6, 2012   ||   3 comments

I haven’t cried this much in so long. Crying is all I managed to do over the weekend. I miss my Grandmother so much, it hurts. She always knew the right thing to say when I was having a bad day, or if things weren’t going great. Her cheeky little smile, always brightened my day.
Since last Sunday (not the one just passed), I’ve been completely miserable. My family and I had to clean out my Grandmothers house, pick out what we want to keep and what was to be thrown out. It was hard. I was doing okay up until we got to her bedroom and I just lost it. I had to leave and I drove straight to my boyfriends house.
All week, everyone kept asking me what was wrong. I just wanted to tell them to, “LEAVE ME ALONE!”, but I just kept saying ‘nothings wrong’. Work was really hectic so it just made things worse. All day Friday I felt like I was going to burst into tears. I was grumpy and horrible to my poor boyfriend when he took me out to dinner and to his Under 12′s Basketball Game. Then when we got back to his house, I told him that I missed my Grandmother and I cried and cried. I felt horrible to dump all that onto him.
He didn’t know how to comfort me, he seemed very uncomfortable. But he tried.
Then on Saturday we were meant to throw all rubbish and furniture out into the dumpster we hired and I just couldn’t do it. I cried telling mum then I couldn’t and she understood. But I felt like such a horrible daughter.
After that I got into an argument with my boyfriend and officially broke down. I screamed and carried on, I couldn’t help it. I told him not to bother seeing me that day, but he came over anyway.
We snuggled on the couch that afternoon, I was slowly getting better. But then he had to leave for his basketball game and I didn’t want him too. I needed him so much. I didn’t want to be alone. I cried for the rest of the day after he left. I’d cry over the smallest things and I couldn’t stop.

My mother and I took a trip down to the graveyard today, where my Grandmothers plaque was supposed to be. As soon as I saw that she was next to my Grandfathers, I felt satisfied. I know that her and my grandfather are happy to finally be together again. I know they’ll look after each other and proudly watch over us. I feel relieved but it’s still going to take me a while to get over it. At least I can now go and visit them both. Which makes me very happy.


Long Weeks.

Family, Friends, Personal, Work Related  ||   February 19, 2012   ||   2 comments

So, it’s been a long couple of weeks for me. Nothing seems to be going right anymore.
Works falling apart and all I can think about is finding another job. I used to love my job so much, until we got horrible managers who don’t give a shit about their staff.
Thursday I had to cover in Produce because the Produce Manager had to have an annual leave day (we were on low wage week), it was a pretty hectic day. Not only did I have to run a department, I also had to take all the deliveries, customer queries and I also helped fill the milk. Then when I could find a bit of time, I had to do my Freezer order for Monday.
Friday I went to have my lunch break and find out that my manager thinks that I did no work and only helped out in grocery because my boyfriend was there. WTF ! I worked my bloody ass off for them and then get told that I did nothing ! I HATE BEING ACCUSED FOR NO REASON ! I was so mad ! Apparently I’m not trusted !

UGH !

So not only did that make me furious, I also had to put up with this girl flirting with my boyfriend the whole day ! I wanted to punch her in the face ! Whenever I walked passed her or she walked past me, I’d get the dirtiest looks ever. I did NOT deserve that. She’s been doing this for a while now, clearly my boyfriend doesn’t like you, SO PISS OFF !

But to add a positive side to this post, I had my very first Valentines Day and it was amazing ! I’ve never had a boyfriend on Valentines Day so I was really excited. I was very spoiled by Rhys. Although I was a bit upset that we couldn’t go out for dinner or anything, but I was still happy with all the effort he went through and he was so happy for the whole day.
I brought him a monkey that reminded me of him, a journal so that he can actually remember dates, chocolates and I crochet him a little teddy bear. This is what he got me:

I’m hoping things will start to settle in my life once I move into our new house. Hopefully I’ll figure out where I’m going in life. But all I want is to start living my life now.
I want to have my own little house, where I can decorate it the way I want. Where I can welcome my boyfriend home every night after his basketball. Where we can both just relax and have dinner every night together. I’m tired of living with my family, they just frustrate me so much ! I love them, but I just want to be free !


2012.

Family, Personal, Work Related  ||   January 12, 2012   ||   3 comments

Happy 2012 everyone !
Sorry for being a ‘tad’ late haha. Hope everyone has had a great start to the year so far.

So I’ve been getting a bit of free time here and there. I’ve taken up scrap booking again and also going to try and find some time for my much neglected site D:  I’ve also finally been able to play the Wii, so I’m pretty much doing Zumba everyday haha. I got it for Christmas and I think I laugh more than I ‘attempt’ to dance. XD I didn’t realize how difficult it was going to be. But it’s a lot of fun.

Works had its ups and downs lately. It was a great day yesterday because both the managers where off for the day, so we had a friendly duty manager and actually got to talk to each other ! SHOCK !
My boyfriend and I are trying to plan to have a holiday in September but because we are both pretty important at work; me being the Freezer Controller and Rhys being the main grocery guy – the assistant manager cracked the shits because we both won’t be there.
How unfair is that? They have plenty of capable staff to cover the both of us, and yet we might not be able to have a holiday together… I’m very pissed !

Rhys and I were planning on going to Vanuatu, but because we both need to save up, its a bit too late to start booking now. So we’ve decided that we are going to do a bunch of things. Go to Queensland, go to the snow, hiking, just relax etc. I’m looking very forward to it ! :D

We received an email from our builders for the new house, saying that they are finally going to pour the slab on the 19th. Took them long enough !
I’m having a slab party hahahaha.

XD

Anywho, time to eat some wonderful dinner and then head off to bed early.
Goodnight everyone. (:


Back Slightly.

Family, Personal, Website Related, Work Related  ||   December 7, 2011   ||   5 comments

Hey guys !
So I’ve had a bit of free time tonight to post. Sorry for being so inactive. I’m trying to change the theme and I’m also thinking about renaming. But that will be decided later on.
Although I’m annoyed with all the spam my wordpress has been getting… I don’t know why, if anyone knows how to fix it please let me know !

Well, I think I might start off with some happy news. I’ve got a boyfriend now and he is absolutely amazing ! He treats me perfectly and we are always hanging out. He’s always taking me out to dinner or we sleep over at each others house. I truly love him. We’ve been going out for almost three months and I know it’s a bit early to say that, but it’s true. I’m so happy and so lucky. I can’t believe how great its been.

I’ve become Full-Time at my work now. I’m still the Freezer Controller but I know work normal grocery Tuesdays and Thursdays. I’m excited that I get my weekends back and I have a set pay every week so it’s easier to know how much I can spend and such.
Although there are some people at work who are getting on my nerves. We’ve also got a new manager and I’m just waiting for him to crack. So that should be interesting to witness.

We’ve moved into our rental place whilst our house is getting built. It’s rather tiny, but cozy and homey. I’m closer to work, the boyfriend and also I’m in my hometown again. I really enjoy it here, although am a little bored because most of my stuff are packed.
Our new house should hopefully be built by May, but I wouldn’t hold my breath. Things keep stuffing up with all the planning etc. Sigh.

Now for some bad news.
My Grandmother passed away in October. She was very sick, but died peacefully in her sleep. I got to see her the day before and she was all happy and starting to look a little bit better. Then on Sunday my mum went down to her house to check how she was doing and found her dead in her favorite chair.
We had the funeral the coming Thursday.
I miss her so much. My family, especially my mum, have been really struggling lately. I cry whenever something reminds me of her, or when I look at photos.
Christmas won’t be good this year without her. She was the glue that held my family together.

I don’t want to talk about it anymore.

Other than that, nothing really else has happened. Christmas in like.. 2 weeks I think. So I’ve been trying to get the Christmas shopping done etc. I found out that my boyfriend is buying me a white gold ring. I can’t wait, I’m so excited to see it !

I hope everyone is doing well.
I will hopefully start atleast posting more.


Hiatus

Uncategorized  ||   November 9, 2011   ||   2 comments

Hi everyone !
I’m soo sorry that I have been so inactive. I’m working full time and just don’t have time to blog much anymore.
So I’m going on a hiatus, not sure when I’ll be back.

Sorry again.